Marriage what??

So I started out the weekend finally finding out my MCAT scores.. Thankfully I'll never have to take that test again. Having had that relief I was ready to spend the evening with Jason.. formally Mr. Net. I realized earlier that I wasn't giving Jason a fair chance not because I wasn't attracted to him or anything, but b/c I was still caught up with Mr. Protege.. well I'm over that now and I started liking Jason a lot more.. that is until this weekend when he left me utterly confused.

So Jason calls Saturday to give me specific details on what we were going to do. We were going to have dinner with his new "friend" who we'll call.. Kat.. and her friends.. and then we were going to go to a museum re-opening in SF. Ok sounded good to me. Jason calls later to say that he got to San Fran but got lost and so Kat was going to go pick him up.. Hm.. really? You've only known her a week or so and she's ready to drive to the other end of the city to pick you up.. hm.. ok.. whatever.

So I meet Jason, Kat, and Kat's friends at a restaraunt I'd never heard of and immediatly I dont get a good vibe. Kat's friends are dressed in t-shirts and sweats on a SATURDAY NIGHT.. that was just the girls. Then there were her guy friends, one wearing a HUGE backpack and the other just seemed artsy, which was cool. And there I was dressed in a skirt, a lacy top, my new BCBG heels and a form-fitting jacket. Uhh.. yeah.. I then realize that Kat is giving Jason the googly eyes.. AND suddenly Jason's behavior just becomes REALLY annoying in the presence of these ultra laid back chicks. Maybe annoying b/c I know he prefers the laid back look.. although I feel abercrombie laid back is more his style than sweats on a saturday night laid back.. and also annoying b/c I didnt want to talk to them for very long and he's just shooting the breeze with them as if anything interesting is being said.

Sigh, anyway. After making a half-assed attempt not to look like a complete bitch and strike up conversation with Kat and her friends I decide I can't put myself through the torture of having to deal with them for the WHOLE night.. so I zone out and start thinking of things to say to get myself out of the evening like.. "oh there was something in that crepe, I don't feel too well" or "yeah I'm tired from packing I think I'm going to call it an early night." But wait! Kat gets a call from a friend who she needs to pick up from the airport. Woohoo. Bye bye biznatch! Then after dinner we decide to all take different cars so bye bye to the "sweats on a saturday night girls."

So Jason and I get to the museum event and none of the previous friends are anywhere to be found (thank god!). The line was ass long but we ended up running into Stanford people who were pretty funny and made the wait seem a lot shorter.

We finally get into the museum and despite my initial hesitance about enjoying myself at a museum, I rediscover my love for all things beautiful yet original. At this point though I'm still really confused about the whole encounter earlier in the evening and I'm wondering if Jason just wants to be friends... But that all gets cleared up when he starts acting really affectionate and holding my hand in public despite the two zits on my chin! Ahk! I didnt know museums were so bright! Talk about feeling self concious.. :(

Anyway so I get too tired to drive back with Jason to the North bay so we decide he can just crash at my place and I could take him back in the morning. Everything seemed to be going well until this morning..

Him: So Bang, how old are you again?
Me: 21
Him: Do you ever think you'll reach an age where you feel that you should stop just floating and actually date people seriously?
Me: Um, yeah, maybe when I'm like 28 I'll start panicking if I havent found anyone by then.
Him: Yeah in my family I feel like the odd person out. Its been my brother and his wife and my mom and dad and then me for a while now. And after I've been with a girl for a while like a year or 6 months or whatever, I start to think about marriage but for all the wrong reasons... like at least I'd be married. But then again I dont believe in divorce.. so I'm really hesitant.
Me: (What the hell are you talking about? Are you trying to dump me? whats going on).. ok that was just internal monologue.. Anyway, what I ended up saying: Oh man! By no means should you try and force anything. I'm a big believer in the idea of it being right when its right, and you'll know. In the meantime you should just take your time.
Him: So you think you shouldn't force it and you should just get to know someone.
Me: Yeah. Especially if you're afraid of divorce, you shouldn't get married for the wrong reasons!
Him: Yeah.. I guess I just start to wonder if I know what love is anymore. But yeah I'm glad we're on the same page.

UUUMMM.. ok.. so now I'm totally confused. My interpretation of the conversation was that he was indirectly telling me we were currently just "floating" and that maybe he should stop dating me b/c he's getting too old to "float." My guy friends interpretation was that he feels like he might want to settle down and cant see himself dating any girl who wasnt open to the possibility of marriage.

Either way it was a round-a-bout way of saying SOMETHING.. what that something is I REALLy don't know.. but at this point I'm just so confused that I'll opt to just take things one step at a time and see where things go, without any expectations.. b/c lord knows this guy is doing a lot of thinking.. and funny enough, when it comes to guys "thinking" about anything relationship related its usually never a good sign..